Monday 30 September 2013

Nothing but the truth

I need to take a moment to be completely honest with my blog followers. You sometimes experience short or long breaks from my daily inspirations. Believe me, if I could write to you I would, but these breaks of communication are a result of my mental health. I am managing a condition called bipolar affective disorder. My brain has a chemical imbalance that causes me to experience periods of really high, hyper activity and periods of low, depressive moods. You help me so, so much along my journey with this illness and I felt it was appropriate to be real with you as you have been so real with me. I try not to feel too guilty when I leave you and hide from my blog, but I am always amazed when you welcome me back with open arms. I spend time on people's blogs who are raw and open every day about their struggles and I think it is a scary and beautiful thing to witness. I know my blog doesn't get personal but I still feel this strong connection to all of you. Amazing. Well, I want to thank you for being part of my healing, and if you notice I am MIA feel free to drop me a line letting me know how much this blog means to you. It may inspire me to connect my fingers to my keyboard once more. I know I hijacked today's inspiration but I felt compelled to share.

6 comments:

  1. You are so brave, Vanessa, for expressing your feelings like this. We all go through things in life. Good and bad. I love how authentic you are. Write when you want. And when it feels good to you. We're always reading...

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    1. I never think of it as brave. It feels weak….like asking for help when other people need help so much more. But I thank you for seeing me in such a positive light!

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  2. I really enjoy your inspirations, and sometimes they are spot on for what I need on a particular day. No apologies necessary. Embrace who you are and share when you are comfortable.

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    1. We all need inspiration. I am glad I have dug in a spot as part of your life. That makes me feel really special!

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  3. i'm just catching up on all i've missed. i'm so fortunate to have met you through this outlet, i genuinely look forward to your daily inspirations. you are a strong a beautiful woman, i can just see it through your writing. thank you for sharing :)

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    1. Glad to have you in my community! I printed off your message and am keeping it in my TA DA book :)

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